First Time Blogger

Today is my first time blogging. I felt that I needed a change in my life, a way to express myself. So much has changed in my life over the past few years. I just need a place to let it all out before I hurt myself physically by keeping it all locked away. I am not a perfect person, hell I am starting to wonder if I am even a good person. People are always saying that I am but my closet girlfriends who are no longer girlfriends seem to think differently. I have tried again and again and again what I did wrong and I just can't find the answer and they are not giving me the information that I need to make it right. So I talk to a professional who advised me to write out my feelings on a daily basis. I have already been in the hospital once for a week due to stress but I did not tell anyone. My husband knew of course and he was furious he tells me my heart is to big and that is why I always get hurt. Who knows but I am going to move on and be happy, it will take me sometime but it will all be good!